This is my healing story. I am 26 years old and have extreme lower back, hip, and leg pain.
I own a gardening business and have always been extremely fit, however I fell while rock climbing two years ago and my back hasn't been the same since. I have a dent in my back on the left side of T4 which, my chiropractor has told me, has caused T3 and T4 discs to bulge into my nerves. I don't have insurance, so finding a cure, much less what's wrong with me has been quite a journey.
I've been to a chiropractor, multiple acupuncturists, massage therapists, yoga classes, inversion tables, and the emergency room all without much change. The emergency room was a complete waste of time, one acupuncturist made my pain even worse, yoga = pain, and I was running out of energy.
Because I don't have insurance, I was bartering with most of these people for gardening work, but knowing that I would have to do manual labor to be healed just kind of adds a bad flavor. So I decided once day that I had had enough. I needed to be able to heal and apparently I needed to be able to heal myself. So I decided to become certified in Reiki. It's an energy healing method that's relatively easy to learn and has no negative side effects.
I've been certified for a year and find it really helps in dealing with the pain, but after moving last month it got really bad again. Like really bad. After two months of crawling around and crying and sitting out of my favorite activities I decided again that I had had enough. I called my Reiki sister Dee and asked her if she would come over and we could do Reiki on each other (once again having to barter to be healed). I decided to do Reiki on her first, leaving me for after.
On this particular day I felt the flow like never before. I was determined it was going to be a healing day for both of us. I was open, listened to her body, felt her breath, wiped away some negativity while keeping the positive in its place. She said she had never felt my energy like that before and neither had I. So after an excruciating 45 minutes it was finally my turn.
My boyfriend was coming home in 30 minutes so we had to make it a power session. Right from the get go I felt the need to cry. I felt very passionate, that I had a mission today-and that was to heal. With every deep intense breath I called upon anything and everything to assist me in my healing. God, Jesus Christ, Rafael, Buddha, my breath, the maker of everything, please, I beg of you, if this is my moment to heal, please let it be so. I'm ready, I'm open, please help me release.
Every breath that I took in I concentrated it into my lower back or my hips or my left leg-it was excruciating. It hurt to let the fresh air in to expand, but I kept my breath in the pain and held it there as long as I possibly could then with each exhale felt my body relaxing deeper into healing. The 30 minute session was the most intense 30 minutes I've experienced since being robbed at gun point in South America!
The Reiki practitioner was breathing intently, and I have never breathed so intently and with so much focus for so long. All the while invoking anything and everything I could to aide in the healing process. This is my time to heal, I thought. It's time, I'm open, I'm ready to be done with this-just relax already! Just relax! With each breath I could start to feel a shift of energy flow. At least the pain with each breath let me know I was activating the area, so I kept pushing deeper into it. My left leg would twitch sometimes, letting me know currents were flowing. Things were happening and I was determined. My boyfriend came home and the session soon came to a close. I started to get up off the table, but my body said no! Just lie here and let this soak in.
I got up to go to the bathroom and felt pain and tightness in the back of my leg and down through my calf, not my hip and side leg like before. This was strange. By the time I got done I was feeling light headed and felt an all consuming need to just lie down. I couldn't move. It was a little scary. This was either really good or really bad. I moved back on the massage table hoping to gain my bearings again but shortly my friend had to leave and I had to walk her out. So, I slowly started to slide off the table and before my feet even hit the floor, I felt two huge pops in my lower back – right inside the pain zone. I froze, not knowing whether to stand or lie back down, or just keep still floating half on the table half off.
I looked up at Dee. It was obvious she had heard it, too. Both of our eyes were as round as silver dollars. As I started to stand, I felt different. I had no pain! I was still feeling light headed. My body didn't know what to think. It felt good but I needed to lie down. After walking her out. I took my rightful place on the couch and didn't move all night. Just breathed and let the shift settle. When my feet hit the ground the next morning I could tell the shift took. I got up and stood up straight! I noticed that my attention didn't go to my back! I could stand without pain! I was scared to even say it. Could it really be true?
I didn't want to jinx it and further, and I still didn't feel like moving. Didn't feel like bending, like stretching or really moving my back in any way. It still had some sinking in to do. So I grabbed a book and headed back to the couch. I read, I took notes, I laughed, I cried, I breathed, I kept healing for the next eight hours. I felt different. I felt better. I felt my back open and release. I just thanked the world and let it sink in. I bowled four games that night with a straight back and very little pain.
Your breath is an incredible healing tool. Use it! Reiki! Reiki! Reiki! Be open to healing! Allow yourself to be helped! Just relax and breathe into the pain!